Jam Session: Thursday, June 16, 2022

Did You Count Your Blessings Today?

Today, was once again a busy day, but I thank God for coming through to show me His glory. I realized how easy it is for me to fall into the emotions that others project onto me, and I’ve been praying for the discernment to respond from my place of truth.

It’s been working. At least, when I’m conscious about practicing it, and not falling into the pressures of the feelings of others.

I got trapped up today, and did not honor what was on my heart, and I almost let it ruin my mood – my mood in the middle of attending a worship concert. I was embittered. Angry, even. I almost succumbed to a pissy attitude…

But God.

In the midst of seething, the worship leader made a comment about emotions being temporary, and not allowing our temporary emotional state cause amnesia to how God’s blessed our lives immensely, and grace us His Word as guidance.

“Be angry and sin not, Jam. Don’t grumble, argue and complain. In all ways, live peacefully among men. It’s just a temporary state, Jam. The feelings others feel have no impact over your life. Thank you, Jesus for your patience, for your sacrifices…”

And I cried. I released the feelings that were holding me back, and proceeded to thank God in the midst of my tears for all that he’s brought me through. And my mood was transformed. I could no longer focus on the disappointment, but the joy of God keeping me covered under His grace and favor. That He kept me protected so many times, and hasn’t failed me yet.

My tears released the tension, and from my mouth, my blessings flowed.

Even in the midst of hardships, count the blessings through it all. As long as you are still standing, you’re still blessed and highly favored.

I love you.

A Prayer

Father God,

Thank you for keeping me covered under your precious blood. Thank you for reminding me that even in the midst of my anger, you’ve kept me safe. Remind me early and often to do all things in love, and to be angry and sin not. May I always display your goodness even in the moments of trials and tribulations. May we all turn to you in our times of deepest suffering and anger to remember that you have kept us so far, and are still doing it despite our feelings.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Mood Music

This evening, I attended the Kirk Franklin and Maverick City concert, and was reminded of a song that my mother played in the house over and over and over again. Why I sing is still on my morning worship playlist to this day. So, glory hallelujah! I give the praises to you.

Until Tomorrow.


Jam Session: Wednesday, June 15, 2022

Feeling the Feels

Remember when I told you all about my 24 phoneless hours?

Going without a phone for 24 hours made me realize how many moments I use my phone in order to escape feelings of discomfort – perhaps that discomfort is loneliness, so I’m looking for connection. I may be bored, and looking for a way to entertain myself. Or, even worse, I have an important task I need to complete, and I’m using my phone to numb out.

Not having my phone yesterday made me realize I probably could benefit from having a set weekly day where there’s no phone, and I can confront the overreliance.

A big aspect of maturity is growing to a space where you can give up the habits that are no longer serving you, or the person you wish to become.

What are some habits you can stand to outgrow today?

A Prayer

Father God,

Thank you for every lesson that you teach so freely, and for the control that you give us to make the best decisions for ourselves. Lord, I ask that you continue to reveal the spaces in my life where I can decrease my dependence on external happiness so that I may increase my dependence on you to fill those spaces with joy.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Mood Music

Won’t He do it? We’re overcoming our challenges, an removing the obstacles out of our way. We got this.

Until Tomorrow.